Male rant time!

So lately I've been going through a lot. I lost my grandmother, lost a bunch of friends, gained a job, (had to explain to the job that almost 2 weeks after I start I have to take off 5 days for Jewish holidays, and then a couple of months later have to take off two more.)[Being religious can be very difficult at times] (In terms of my grandmother she was a fascinating lady. Did not like to censor at all but I get several of my skills from her the fact that I knit, crochet, sew etc. She made all of her own clothes and always looked incredible!)
Now here comes the fun part regardless of all the other craziness lets add boys being difficult and annoying. Two of my college friends keep teasing me that i should become a lesbian I tease them back that they just want to watch should I become a lesbian. My frustration falls in that I'm not at the point where I am willing to become a lesbian so my guy friends can get their kicks. So I'm stick with heterogeneous relationships aka make/female. This would be fine. But the issue? I keep getting myself into lots and lots of trouble. The guy who I hadn't spoken to in a while b/c he was scared of me finally agreed to come to a shabbos meal. Yay. Then he changed his mind b/c he decided that there was another meal that he wanted to go to b/c there were people there that he didn't know as opposed to a meal where he knew them. After all he's been to my house a bunch of times. So therefore I should just let him rain check right? Yeah I was a little offended. Then there was another guy who seemed really interested. We were shmoozing, quite a bit. I actually kind of enjoyed him. Then oops he falls off the face of the planet. I invite him for a meal nope too busy, can't actually talk ever. Huh. One of these days my goal is to actually feel control in my life and not just feel like I'm being used abused etc. In the meantime I'm baking, cooking etc for the upcoming holiday Purim, still have to figure out my costume. Ah well.

My life currently

So this post is not going to be super exciting on the grounds that right now my life is rather quiet. I can say that lately I've been turning some guys down on Frumster. Number 1 I am not interested in a 22 year old. 2. I am not interested in a 70 something year old. You could be my grandfather. Although the range between the 2 seems to be a lot of fun.
Right now I am currently job searching. Job searching for those of you who have never experienced it SUCKS! Some of my friends call it funemployment. Yes there are aspects that can be fun. 1. I'm slowly catching up on my DVR stuff that I've taped. 2. I've rediscovered TV shows that I haven't seen in ages. The Nanny is really funny and right now seems to correspond to my life in that I'm 31 (Although Fran Fine/Aka Fran Drescher never admitted her true age), single etc. Also I still enjoy Home Improvement. Tim Taylor is great in that as I'm sure all of you know never gets anything right but periodically is sweet. 3. I'm still doing a lot of knitting and crocheting. 4. Once in a blue moon I go out on interviews etc. 5. Sleeping in and going to sleep really late I've turned into a night owl. Which means I now overlap with Israeli friends so I can talk to people on G-chat and Facebook.
Lastly, tonight I hung out with some college friends. I find this ironic although we overlapped for at least a couple of years it seems we still had different college experiences. I did not spend most of my college years drinking. They seemed to have done so. It was still a lot of fun and absolutely amazing to catch up some with some of the people there. Although at one point I turned to a friend of mine there (we were college freshmen together) and I made the comment that am I the only single person here? His comment? No there are at least 2 others here who aren't. Oh? Who? My son (He's 3), and the other kid he's a couple of months old. My comment. Thank you dear.