Does feelings of inadquecy ever go away?

So here's the deal.  I'm happy for my friends who are getting engaged and married.  YAY go them!  But there's the "what about me" feeling that seems to periodically penetrate my persona.  Its hard.  Multiple friends who are all younger than me lately have been getting engaged and married.  I was talking to three good friends today who all agreed that its hard.  But the issue is putting your feelings of frustration and anger aside and to be happy for your friends.  This is something admittedly I'm working on.  Someone asked me today what it would like  I said if I had my dream, my response then I would be married with 2.5 kids and a steady job.  (In this case the half means pregnant not anything horrible but it took me a while to explain this)  I remember when I was in high school (an all girl's school) we used to joke around to a jewish folk song "oooh I know there is a boy for me I just don't know where he could be..."  I guess I never thought many years after this time in my life I'd still be wondering the same question.  Notice I'm not telling you how many years its been.  I'm trying to not date myself ;-) 
I was talking to another friend in shul and explained recently that a mutual friend of ours has decided to be shomer negiah (aka not touch the opposite gender) with just me.  I'm trying to figure out how to not take it offensively that he doesn't want a hug from me but is willing to touch other girls.  Hopefully the next post will continue my wonderful trend of all the guys that I've supposedly dated. 

So It's been a long time...
I got myself into trouble 2 years ago I posted on the blog something, took it down, and lost a bunch of friends in the process.  My feeling at this point is oh well.  So my life is amusing and ridiculous. 
1. I worked Xmas.  Its a very odd feeling walking from one place to another in the morning and there was no one was around.  Usually on my way to work I'm surrounded by people and its hard to cross the main st.  Xmas was great periodically.  Work went from boring to insane.  One of the saddest experiences I've ever had I got called to the ER a pt had passed away and her sister needed support.  I went down there.  Towards the end of the time she kissed her sister on the forehead said goodbye and walked away.  I almost burst into tears right then and there.  The other factor was that although I am a religious Jew I'm still a firm believer in Murphy's law.  You can call it Karma, you can call it bad luck, me I just think of it as Murphy's law.  Generally working in the medical field means that your day is supremely busy and insane.  If it's quiet you never use the "q word" (So another realization there are multiple words you don't use depending on the situation the c word (commitment) the M word (marriage) the L word (Love))  if you use the q word all hell breaks loose.  Case in point is the previous example with the sweet older woman saying goodbye.  Although I was proud of myself I was able to assist. 
2. I am now running an a capella group.  I've become the musical dictator or benevolent despot, or something about a mugwhump (per a friend I wish I knew what a mugwhump was)  I've gotten better musically, even better rhythmically.  (Bm Bm BM!) 
So I'm going to try restarting this.  Lets see what happens.
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